Back to Reality

[Stimpy]

Exactly one week ago, I had reached a point where I had presented my story many times over and had gotten about all of the support of the many good people on Scam Survivors as possible. Despite all of the optimism of others, I was not there yet. RF and I had a long way to go. I was still submerged in an altered reality.

Twenty months ago, when my scam started, I was drawn into another place that was filled with lies, deceptions, and empty promises. It was a place that could only be reached by passing into a whole differnet reality.There I experienced a life like I had never known before. It was a confusing life where I gave another invidual everything I had and more. I had been drawn there with the hopes and plans of finding love and companionship. This I was promised. I gave and gave to a person I loved and cherished. However, I received little back except for more promises for a wonderful future life.

During this time, I lived a complex life with the many ups and downs of real life. This was intermingled with periods of both brief happines and painful manipulations. After a long and painful scam, I was deserted and left in a world of disapointment and confusion. Anger was mixed with a dying love and the inability to accept that I had not been loved in return. I tried and tried to get better, but the problem was that I was unable to get out of that altered reality. I still loved my scammer, and I thought he loved me. His image stayed in my brain, and I could not accept that he was not a good person.

RF worked with me for hours, sometimes until late into the night. She would push me, and I would falter. I was stuck.
Finally she had to give the the ultimate challenge, to remove him from my own mind. She left me alone to see what would happen. I spent three days in psychological isolation. There I did my part. I drove my own mind to the limit. I think it reached the point where it could not take it anymore. RF called me and something beautiful happened that I cannot explain. I left the old reality and passed into a new one. The old one vanished. When I realized what had happened, my scammer was back in Russia, and my brain was in a brand new world. I am back now. The pain is gone, and I am free.

I owe it all to RF. She did it all. I just followed.

Stimpy

[Ruffled Feathers]

Hi Stimpy ---

You got yourself back to reality, myself and many others helped you along the way. I just booted you a little harder than the others, but you here now - in the real world.

Be happy always, RF

[duckhunter]

That's wonderful Stimpy! I am so very proud of both of you.

[Big Al]

So very happy for you Stimpy. Keep on the good path and don't look back.
Al

(Congrats on a great job, Ruffles)

[Pinky]

LOL, We're not done with you yet, Buster.

Now you gotta stick around and 'Pay it forward.'

And RF, YOU'RE AWESOME!

[SlapHappy]

What a sweet of events for both of you. Up up and away!

[almost_bit]

I am really glad to see this post - both for Stimpy and for RF.

Stimpy - Welcome to a whole new life! You'll be amazed at the new strength you have.

RF - I've seen the support you've given him. Well done.

[Ruffled Feathers]

Hi Everyone,

Thank you all for your compliments, but Stimpy did alot for himself, I only had to help him through the process, which all of you have done for me.

So I thank all of you for being there for me in the beginning of my recovery and as Pinky said, it's paying it forward which I have been trying to do. Your postings tonight have meant alot to me, and I am very grateful.

Thank you all, RF

[Tomi]

@Stimpy: So wonderful to hear this. Cheer to a whole new and stronger YOU!!!

@RF: So well done. You did it again. Talk to you soonest.

[Holly Louis]

Well done RF, hope you are doing well, Stimpy hope all goes well for you from now on...