Wayne, Tomi and Ruffled Feathers, thank you all for kind words. I know I have friends here.
I need some time before I am able to post letter here. Since my husband passed away 14 years ago, I was unable to open my heart for anyone.... first time I opened my heart and fell in love .... turned out to be all lies. I cannot sleep at night, unable to eat ...lost all my appetite . I am losing weight... wait! Maybe it is good thing, never can find any weight lost program is that effective.
I don't know I will ever trust men again. I feel so stupid and angry at myself.
Regardless of what happen, I never feel so alive.