This is a beautifully written article and sums up what most of us have gone through in trying to come to grips with a scammer and being scammed.
I can promise you -- you will come full circle, you will recover and you will be a much better man, and a man who can and will deal with all the good things that happen in life and will take full joy in the creation of the happy event --- the other - bad stuff - doesn't happen that often by comparison. That is something to keep in mind, good out weighs evil.
The image that is still in your mind you must try to block - I know easier said then done, but once that goes to the back of the mind, your recovery will progress rapidly. You told me in chat the other day, your 3 year old neice was challenging you to a play time in the park, or she would cut your hair.....that is something joyful to remember and laugh about --- the demands of a three year old, children don't worry about fears that may never happen, they live in the moment and that as a scammed individual we have all had to learn to do.
There is a wonderful saying, yesterday is history, tomorrow is the future, today is a gift, that is why it is called the present. I hope you will take today as a gift and live each moment as productively as possible. You are too strong to let the scammer win --- you are the winner here because he taught you a life lesson and that you can learn from in a positive manner.
I wish you well, and I know from experience of dealing with other victims you will get healthy and recover. Now is the time to take care of you and return to a "new" normal in your life. You probably have read in many areas of this forum, people actually thank the scammer for making them a better person, that will happen with you also.
I look forward to talking with you again in the chat room, in the meantime, let your neice guide you to joy as only the young can.
A scammer is only as good as the fear he creates.