Hello Dear .
How is your day going ? why am i getting addicted to your email? I get a good glow on my face just getting back to read from you. Wonderful,I knew something was missing since i haven't smiled all morning till now,i understand everything you wrote perfectly since we start to write each other so i try to select my words because its coming from the depth of my heart and i mean my every word,well i just want to let you know that am a man who appreciates you for who you are. i think i am becoming restful again, maybe i could sense something good ahead of us...Your mail makes me speechless cause i also believe in Love and i hope we can meet soon..
You had noticed that i do not tell you much self-perceptions of what i am,though i could understand who you are from your words alone and what makes who you are ..Through the learning of the recent years, I understand our perception of self and others is largely based on our sensing window. We may change our perceptions and stories when we broaden our sensing window. As our perceptions naturally evolve when we grow our conscious level, I feel hesitant to make any version I may see very differently perhaps soon after that. I see myself quite different now in terms of state of being from that moment Well, that's the best way for us to get to know people from the beginning,So it has a lot of values.
To be very Honest with you, throughout my healing process, I became aware that some of my achievements or success in social norm were driven by my defense. In the very moment of awakening to the truth, it's very challenging to hold the self together as many traits I viewed as my strengths fell apart in the light and I needed to know where to rest on to get connected with who I am in an undefended sense. The blessing is the Brennan healing science discovered four dimensions of human existence. In the fourth dimension is our core star which is the divine spark and it remains intact no matter how much wounding experience we have been through in many life times. It takes a lot of work and help to get energetic connection to the core star and experience how it supports our heart and soul. The process work proves that the more we allow ourselves to clean up the wounds, the more we get connected to our core essence. I am still on the healing path while getting more and more connected to my core. Once disconnected from my defense bit by bit, I find it's a VERY different feeling about self and life. I never regret for any single moment that I made time, money and energy investment to explore the truth. That's why I quit the job as an Engineer to study the Business Management. The students at the school come from all walks of life and from a number of countries. One of my classmates made a sharing in our group process: "life without healing is shit!" For me, the difference is about leading a life in darkness or in light.I went a bit far to make the point that I do not put labels on myself because of the learning. Surly, I am very open to allow my life partner to know everything about me, both the shadow and the light. It takes natural process, and time.
What wouldn't i do to make my dreams come true. It is like a rigger waiting for a trigger. Would you be my trigger? I just need a woman to hold me before i am old. Absolutely i have come to know that we spend the most of our life seeking for the secondary needs, while our primary needs are left unseen. We have worked so hard and attained some wealth right? but for what purpose? To be realistic, except if you just want to be known as a rich person, wealth means nothing if you have no best friend to share it with. All the millions are useless indeed. how much do we need to eat? How much do we need for shelter? how much do we need for daily fun. excess and excess leads us to vanity. But for few of us who value the simplicity, we sure would do well in finding happiness. As i always say, money can buy a good bed, but never will money buy sleep. it can buy the best diamond watch, but can never buy time, It can buy piles of books , but cant buy knowledge.. It can buy food, but not satisfaction, Money can buy sex, but can NEVER buy love. That is why , i refuse to follow the crowd, so as my own man, i would give up all that can be bought for that which cant be bought. I want true joy and happiness. I want my woman to have power over my moods, she can make me smile in all weather.
I am glad that we met and it would be great if we meet as soon as possible, You have a special thing in your heart that i intend to find out what it is
It could take a lifetime to figure but i don't mind,Please tell me about your ideology of life. I will be waiting impatiently to hear from you.
Tony.
