On a personal note – panic attacks.

Those who know me, will know that I suffer from occasional panic attacks. They’ll also know that I have to avoid certain stimulants such as caffeine like the plague. No morning cup of coffee for me, only caffeine free cokes and Dr Pepper is completely out of the question which is a shame as I used to love that stuff. Something else was added to that list a few weeks ago. To treat a sinus infection, I was given a steroid spray. The day after, I woke up to one of the worst attacks I’ve ever had. Now usually when I get a panic attack, it’ll fade off within 15-20 minutes. Not this time. This damn thing lasted a week non stop! This is the second time I’ve had a reaction to a steroid spray or cream, but this was the one that confirmed it’s the cause. I was OK for a day or so after that week long episode, but then it came on me with a second wave that lasted on and off for two whole weeks. When these happen, it’s pretty much impossible to function. I can’t sit down, can’t sleep, can’t concentrate on anything and am generally no use to man nor beast. If you’ve never had the misfortune to suffer with a panic attack, think yourself lucky. At times it physically feels like you’re dying, and at other times you would welcome death to put an end to the suffering. I have enough experience to know what was going on, but even that’s small comfort when you’re going through it for the fifth day solid with no respite. Thankfully it’s been a week now since the last episode, so I’m hoping things are back to “normal” here. What I’d like to say is that, while all this was going on, the rest of the crew stepped up to cover me. For that I’d like to say thank you. The small group that work on this site are people I genuinely consider some of my closest friends, and times like this only reinforce that feeling. Now let’s hope the next attack is a long way away as there’s scammers to deal with!