avrb,
The three people who posted to you above all have very good insights and suggestions for actions to help you to move ahead. There are also many other posts by other members here who are in various stages of healing from their scam. If you have not read this entire topic, I encourage you to do so. You must not let the "fantasy image" control your future any more. As long as you allow yourself to cling to the "image," the scammer still has some control over you, even though you do not talk to him any more. The image is false, and you need to reject it to get stronger. As long as you cling to it, you are still living in the past and in the scam.
I'll give you another suggestion to help you. Our podcasts are made specifically to help victims recover from scams, educate others so that they will not be scammed, and can also help everyone to stop scams occurring within their own circle of family and friends. The first half of each podcast contains the 15-30 minute interviews. The three people above were all interviewed, as were the rest of the staff here. Other survivor members of scams and some of our friends who are anti-scam professionals were also interviewed and talk about their scam or various topics about what they do to help save victims and potential victims from scammers.
Many of the interviews deal with romance scams, so I highly encourage you to listen to them. It will also help you to get out of the Fantasy World created by the scammer and help you to purge the "image" that you are having trouble letting go of. You will hear all the real voices of the staff that work here, and hear the members generous enough to offer to be interviewed for us to help others move ahead as well. Attaching voices to what we type here will help you to come back to the reality of what you face in working at healing in the days ahead for you. Hearing our words I hope will inspire you to take back the control of your life yourself.
As an added benefit in the podcasts, the second half contains funny calls that the staff and friends made to scammers, doing some improv comedy. Listen to us make asses out of the scammers, and sometimes ourselves.
Laughter is good for the soul.
http://scamsurvivors.com/podcasts/