Giftyo, 4 months of
your own life is far too much to give the scammer. So, stop it now.
"Then he sent me a link, which I never open. It was a very long link, stretched through three lines in the message. I have not opened it because it seems like a link from which I could pick up a virus. Then after that, he sent me a setup file in the message, which I also didn't open (because apparently it was some malware)"
Good. You did the right thing here, by not opening it.
"now can not see what is that link?"
"It tearing me apart that I did not follow all the steps and that scammer will not leave me."
You are still curious what is in that malware link, aren't you. WHY?
" probably nothing will ever show up."
"I can't go back and see what link is all about (is it some virus or video link)."
You think the scammer is gone, and yet you WANT TO CLICK THE LINK. WHY??
"I now have a battle with myself, I must forgive it to myself."
"Obviously it is necessary to recognize this thought in my head that is tearing me apart and run over it with opozite one."
What you are saying to yourself is,
"I did not get enough punishment from the scammer. He wanted to infect my PC, and I did not let him. I should have clicked on it, because I deserved to be further punished. I deserved to have my bank accounts phished, my online accounts hacked, and my life further ruined by the scammer. I also deserved to have my video sent to all of my FB friends, too.
It didn't happen because I stopped it, and I feel guilty for stopping the punishment that I feel that I deserve."
Why do you engage in self-punishment? Why do you feel guilty for not clicking on the links? Most everyone would be glad they did not. Those are the questions you need to answer.
Why do you not forgive yourself? You need to get to the bottom of that question.
"I hope you really think that in my story scammer is no longer a problem "
It appears that you still do not believe a word we say, and prefer to believe the scammer, because you think you deserve to torture yourself if the scammer is not around to do it.
Are you just dying to experience some of the pain that clicking on that link would have given you? Do you think that might cleanse your conscience, and satisfy your compulsion of self-injury? Fine. Then I have a way that you can experience some of the pain, minus stealing your bank accounts and logins.
Format your PC and reinstall Windows. Make sure that you do not save any documents, pictures, music, videos, bookmarks, school work if in the University, EVERYTHING. Wipe the PC clean.
Then just try to put as much of the lost stuff back on your PC, and cry and scream bloody murder about every file that you do not have any copy of anywhere.
All are lost forever.
How's that? Good idea? Feel better? Is that enough pain and punishment for you? Will you forget about the scammer after you do that?
Or.. you can just start doing CONSTRUCTIVE THINGS instead.
I would suggest going here....
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